I have this feeling inside. This great and powerful urge. A desire. A thought. You can’t deny yourself forever. You can’t live in denial forever. And I have been. I have been denying myself the life I want to live. I have been living in the shadows and I don’t want to anymore. I am grabbing that torch and I am going to light it ablaze and with it I will light the world on fire. Everything will burn in my path because I need a change. Let the old go and the new shall come. Let the sky rain down ashes of my world on fire. Bring forth the glories of dreams kept in the secret and thoughts only written, but never spoken. I want to live. I want to be free. I want to be happy. I want to be.
If this happened at my wedding I would be totally ok with it.
SO recently I have been working on some crooked deals for some gambling demonstrations and I will be hopefully posting videos of those soon because watching the film and getting feedback is always helpful in perfecting the particular deals and shuffles that are used to cheat in card games. And they look really neat on video too:)
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
This is what love looks like ladies and gentlemen. Someone knows me too well!